Overturned Tower

Delphinium suddenly choked when Russell whispered her confession in her ear without any warning.

She completely did not expect that Russell would remain calm and calm during the meeting... just as if he was explaining the truth, he would casually say "I love you" on this occasion.

In the "suicide note" Russell sent her before, there were only words like "I like you."

Later, when the two of them kissed for the first time, Russell only expressed his love in a very euphemistic way - reciting that ancient love poem.

From then on, they confirmed their love for each other. The already somewhat ambiguous relationship suddenly became clear, just like cocktails with distinctly layered colors gradually melting into each other after being left for a long time. They acted more intimately until they crossed that line... The two people, who were already passionate and lusty, finally let go of everything and became passionate and entangled in an instant.

It's like warm liqueur with syrup, chocolate, coffee and cinnamon.

It's so sweet, so fragrant, so hot. After one drink, one can't help but drink again, feeling the warm warmth pouring from the mouth and tongue, sliding over the chest, sinking into the lower abdomen, and then flowing throughout the limbs and bones. It is so sobering and so intoxicating.

They use poems, ballads, opera arias, and lines from movies and TV dramas to euphemistically express their love.

I also used a card full of graffiti, a carefully cooked meal, some messy childish gifts, and two equally childish smiling faces; I used a warm hug, a nearly suffocating kiss, and an emotional scream. .

But so far, they have never said "I love you" clearly.

Delphinium was a little disappointed by this, but also somewhat looking forward to it.

That was the expectation of a girl... She was waiting for Russell to solemnly say these words on a more solemn and romantic occasion that would make her unforgettable in her lifetime.

Until now.

Hearing Russell say these words in a daze, she felt happy on the one hand, but also felt a little regretful on the other hand - how could she say it so lightly?

When I had never heard it before, I would feel disappointed... but now that I have heard it, I still feel disappointed.

She stretched out her slender white fingers, tapped Russell's cheek gently, and complained softly:

"This is the first time you've said 'I love you'."

"I thought I said that."

"No! I remember every word you said, except this one."

"At the beginning, I was shy...and I wasn't sure about your feelings, so I didn't dare to move."

Russell's head emerged from the quilt, and his voice became clear.

"What happened next?"

Delphinium asked: "You didn't say anything later...did you forget it?"

"Although I didn't say these three words, I seemed to be saying 'I love you' every moment."

Russell said softly: "Because I also love you all the time.

“It has become a part of my life and the flesh and blood of the new ‘I’. I don’t need to repeat it to emphasize anything to you, I don’t need to emphasize it to declare something, and I don’t need to declare it to gain anything.

"Because I have already got you, completely you. What I say 'I love you' is not to get anything from you. But because I really love you."

I have never said it before, but now I keep saying it——

"Uh-huh-huh..."

Delphinium covered her slightly hot face and moaned meaninglessly.

However, Russell opened his eyes completely, as if he had discovered something, his eyes suddenly lit up in the evening.

Because Delphinium didn't actually intend to force Russell to wake up directly, she didn't turn on the light... She had quietly left room for Russell to "sleep a little longer." Therefore, Russell's turquoise pupils that suddenly lit up at this moment were so shining in the darkness, like two gems or a bright lamp.

"Are you so pure..."

Russell was amazed: "I didn't expect that you actually liked hearing this.

"Then I can tell you every day. Once when I wake up in the morning and once when I go to bed at night. I can take you to the Ferris wheel or travel to the snowy mountains with you. I remember Bad Day said that there are many places on Taoyuan Island. Zoo and aquarium. Or do you think Yongquan Island is a good tourist attraction?"

"...Aren't you able to penetrate people's hearts?"

Delphinium glared at Russell from between her fingers, still not taking off her hand - she was still using her hand to cool her cheek: "Then why don't you look at me more..."

"Except when we first met, I would never look at you with those eyes. That's disrespectful to you."

"very beginning?"

"That's the first day."

Russell added: "It was before I was Ultramarine."

"You kid..."

Delphinium suddenly came back to her senses: "You are targeting me on the second day after you go to work? Are you saying that you are just looking for sex?"

She pointed at Russell's cheeks physically, and secretly sighed in her heart that Russell's skin felt really good.

"Sex is real sex..."

Russell's voice was blurred when he was poked: "But one thing is that I don't often use that kind of talent to people close to me."

"Why?"

"Learned from my childhood."

Russell's voice became deeper: "At that time, I understood one thing when I was still very young... everyone has 'malice'. Friendship is like a gem, it does not exist forever, A perfect diamond with absolutely no cracks or stains. No one can find a 'perfect person' in this world, let alone absolutely pure feelings.

"Contempt, contempt, jealousy, greed, misunderstanding, anger... Even if you are with your best friend, as long as you get along with him for a long time and in many situations, you will always have dissatisfaction. A person may not even be the same person as he was yesterday. They all hate it, so how can they always be satisfied with the friends they made yesterday?

"It's just that people used reason and love to suppress those bad thoughts... It's just that they forgive or forget those unkindnesses in the past.

"...But I can always catch people's 'bad thoughts' just when they arise in their minds. No one can hide their secrets in front of me. I arrogantly became everyone's friend and took away Their 'social status' does not necessarily mean they are not vindictive. Because I know what kind of ugly people they are in their hearts, so when I was young, I wanted to carry out 'revenge that no one knows'.

"It's like a Kamen Rider or a masked hero. No one knows his identity, no one knows his abilities, and no one knows what he has done, what he punished, what he saved... You may not know. But every boy has a similar dream when he was a child, but I had the ability to realize it at the moment when I just had this wish."

"Sounds dangerous."

"That was indeed dangerous. But fortunately, I didn't grow crooked in the end..."

Russell sighed: "And one of the compromises I made was to choose tolerance for the people I accepted and recognized.

"Seeing the people I love and trust having ugliness in their hearts that is completely different from what they appear to be - that's a huge, violent shock. It brings a strong sense of disappointment... Ah, yes It's like discovering that the private image of a celebrity or idol you admire is completely different or even contrary to the fabricated persona.

“It took me a long time to understand...that it is not a person’s inner voice that represents his ‘truth’.

"A true, complete person is the ultimate fusion of the thoughts in his mind, his self-restraint, and his final actual behavior. Without any part, he is not a complete person.

"People judge other people's souls by looking at their shells. This is a kind of judging people by their appearance and preconceptions... But I can hear other people's voices and touch other people's personalities, and regard this 'original wish' hidden in my heart as theirs. The essence of it. Isn’t this a preconception?”

He looked into Delphinium's eyes and said softly: "In the past, I had an ignorant feeling for you.

"Then I'm even more afraid to listen to what you have to say. Because I'm worried that I will hear... something that will disappoint me."

Hearing this, Delphinium sighed softly.

She raised herself up with her elbows, took Russell out of the cup, and put his head into her arms.

"Now, just listen. You can listen as much as you want."

Mixed with her powerful heartbeat, Delphinium's gentle voice came: "Listen to my heart seriously and thoroughly. From today on, you can always listen to my heart.

"Listen well and remember clearly... This is the love I have for you at this moment. In the future, it will change into other colors and different shapes, but at its core, it is still my love. I will first I return this sentence to you. I want you to find a good place and a good time to say it to me again seriously...

"--I love you."