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The serialization time has not yet been set. I have to fix it quickly, sorry.

Originally, I was trying to fix it at 24:00, but now it seems to be fixed at around 12:00 noon.

When the serialization time changes, the sleeping time also changes, so when it moves back to the serialization time change, a very bad chain reaction…

If you post a series without a fixed sleeping time, you sleep for a few hours and when you wake up, you write a little bit again and go to sleep…

Thank you for your understanding even if it is inconvenient.

<Dirty does not disappear>

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It seems that he lost his mind for a while. Blinking, like the light of an old incandescent light bulb going on and off, intermediate memories are cut off.

I thought I was passing through a dark hallway, but when I woke up, it was an unfamiliar ceiling.

Rudy blankly closed his eyes and opened them again.

For a moment, he didn’t know why he was here.

The moment I forcibly tilted my motionless head and looked to the side, someone’s head came in between the ceiling.

“!”

a big man

For a moment I thought it was a bear.

I was so surprised that I hiccuped without realizing it. It was so hard that I couldn’t even move, but the hiccups suddenly came out, so it was a little funny even in this situation.

The man with the messy hair looked at him quietly and nodded once.

“It looks like he was seriously injured because he lost a lot of blood, but each wound is shallow. are you okay. Get some rest and you’ll get better soon.”

The man’s body smelled of herbs.

maybe a doctor

He doesn’t look like a doctor at all with his casually dressed clothes and shaggy hair, but the man’s hand is holding a long piece of cloth that looks like a bandage.

“I am Pablo. I’m working in the Imperial Palace’s medical department.”

The man deftly lifted little Rudi’s body up little by little, applied herbs, and wrapped a wide bandage tightly.

Looking at it now, it seems that there is something attached to the face as well.

When I lowered my gaze, leaving my face still, I could see the slightly thicker fabric.

A strong herbal scent entered his nostrils.

I thought that maybe the scent of herbs that I thought men gave off might be coming from my own body.

Looking down at Rudy, the man grinned.

“I also put medicine on my face. You have become handsome.”

A man named Pablo turned his head to the side and said.

“This child, it is better not to move for a while. Even if the wound is shallow, it is young. If you overdo it, you will get into trouble. Besides, there are a lot of cuts here and there, so it will be pretty painful. Even now, it’s better not to scream.”

“Ha, I see. But is that possible, won? I don’t know either. There are not many people where this child is. Well, it will work out somehow.”

It is Buradov’s voice that grumbles.

Pablo murmured in a slightly firm voice.

“What happened to this bastard’s imperial palace, what are the scars on such a young child?”

“If you say something like that, you will get into trouble. Don’t forget that you have many enemies. Really, be careful with your words.”

“…”

“Are you still being harassed by other doctors?”

“It is always the same. Last time I examined His Majesty’s horse. They say words suit me better than caring for people.”

“…”

This time Buradov was silent.

Pablo let out a long sigh and shook his head. Dandruff seems to fall from my shaggy hair. I thought it was a little dirty.

“How about Nadiagra Bhimama?”

“Well, thanks to that kid, I got a little better, but I don’t know. I went through a rough day today.”

“…was this child from Mama Nadia’s residence?”

“is it so.”

Pablo put his head back and looked at Rudy’s face.

The bear-like face keeps coming in front of my nose, and I am surprised every time. I was still in pain, but whenever I was surprised, my skin pulled. I wish you would stop.

“Is Bhimama still taking medicine?”

When Rudy answered with a small yes to Pabulo’s question, he let out a long sigh.

“I said the drug was dangerous…”

It seems that Pablo is the doctor who prescribed Bimama’s medicine. And maybe taking it every night isn’t very good medicine. Maybe it’s addictive.

I thought I should ask, but I started to get a little sleepy.

Oh, yes. Nadia Mama is…

His own voice, like a twist of the tongue, rang in his ears. I thought it was just a thought, but the words seemed to come out of my mouth.

“Nadia Mama passed away.”

Judging from Buradov’s answer, it seems so.

I think I kept my eyes open, but I have a feeling that maybe I was sleeping for a while.

I don’t know if I really slept or not.

I don’t know if it’s been about ten minutes or if it’s just a few seconds.

‘Is this a nightmare?’

The pain of the skin is a little dull now.

The herbs the man gave me seem to be working little by little.

Pablo looked up at Rudy’s eyelids and said.

“You can sleep if you are sleepy. You don’t have to try to stay awake. Be careful not to let water in and don’t remove the bandage for at least two days. Come back in a few days when the time is right. Oh, and to the nanny at Bhimama’s residence, I’d like you to tell her that it’s best not to use drugs. You should use it only when you are very urgent.”

Pablo moved aside and the sound of splashing water echoed.

When I forced my eyes open, I saw Pablo washing his hands in a metal basin.

Beyond that, two men stare at Pablo from a distance. It seems that Pablo is laughing at the way he washes his hands, pointing his finger at him.

‘Why are you laughing at me washing my hands?’

Suddenly, beyond the two men, I saw a small flame crackling in the corner of the ceiling.

‘It’s a firebird… It’s okay, it’s okay now…’

Rudy’s words seemed to have reached him, and the crackling light bounced once small, then bounced again a little further away.

It seems to fly while hiding.

It looked like it was jumping around with joy, and I laughed without knowing it.

‘···thank you.’

I fell asleep while thinking about the fire bird’s round eyes with my slow head.

When he awoke, he was in a small carriage driven by Buradov.

Usually there is a coachman, but today, for some reason, Buradov is holding the reins. that seemed a bit odd.

My body shakes and it hurts a little. But it’s much less than before.

‘The bear-like doctor’s medicine works really well.’

Since it was in the Middle Ages, I thought the medical field would be lousy, but I was surprised.

Suddenly, the darkness in the sky faded a little.

Will the princess be well without crying?

‘Maybe I’m picking up something strange and eating it where the nanny isn’t looking…’

I’m really worried because I’ve been trying to fight bugs lately.

In the middle of winter, grass insects almost disappeared, but instead, there were insects in the house.

The most notable is a large black bug resembling a cockroach.

It looks like a wheel, but we cannot admit that it is a wheel. I will never admit that the Earth’s wheel is even here.

‘… that’s not the problem, it’s that if you fight the bug and win, you’ll eat it…’

When wrestling with bugs, the princess might feel like a viking or barbarian warrior.

Thinking about it slowly, I laughed a little.

It seems that Princess Lilitha has been having similar worries ever since she started crawling.

“…”

I don’t think I’ve only seen it for a few hours, but I missed it very much.

In this place where there is nowhere to attach, it feels as if only the mansion where Princess Lilitha is located has warm air flowing through it.

I could see lights crackling in the light purple sky.

The firebird created a small spark as if to say that there was not only the princess but also himself.

It’s harder to notice than when he’s indoors, but somehow he seems to see it better in Rudy’s eyes.

“You’re awake.”

Buradov turned his head back as he drove the carriage. Looking ahead again, Buradov said.

“Come back in a few days. The herb next to it is what I put on your wounds today. Attach it if necessary. When I said that I might not be able to come in a few days, Pablo gave it to me.”

Buradov laughed slightly.

“When I told you that you were going to be trained as a combat slave, I got very angry. But it’s Your Majesty’s order. Education will probably begin before the wound heals.”

At the end of Buradov’s words, we arrived at Mama Nadiagra’s mansion.

A goat bleating could be heard over the fence of the mansion.

When I got up to get up, Buradov clicked his tongue and hugged him.

“Stay still. Wouldn’t it be embarrassing if you moved around and the wound opened?”

It looks like the knife the emperor gave you is in the bag of herbs. A rather heavy pouch was placed on Rudy’s stomach.

Buradov, who always seems to keep some distance, is exceptionally kind today.

Maybe it’s because he thinks he’s an injured child.

It was oddly unfamiliar, so Rudy lowered his head slightly.

Buradov hugged him and strode inside.

“Are you okay?”

“huh? Oh, you mean going in? It’s okay because the chief chamberlain is inside today. You will be properly accompanied by an escort.”

is it. You didn’t just leave after bringing Nadia Mama.

For some reason, I feel a little reassured.

I felt a little uneasy at the thought of only my nanny and Mama Nadia.

As I approached the building, I heard faint cries.

weird. There is no one here to cry like that, so who the hell is crying? Besides, the voice…

“···uh!”

Rudy blinked in bewilderment when the mansion door opened.

It was an escort that seemed to come with the chamberlain.

As soon as the door opened, the screaming and crying grew louder.

It is the voice of a princess.

It’s almost like I’m hoarse, but I’m still crying and screaming. The sound of metal and the sound of the wind mixed to the point where it was painful to hear.

‘No way, she’s been crying ever since I left.’

It was the moment Rudy opened his mouth to ask him to come down.

Suddenly, the little body of the princess crawled up and put her head on Buradov’s leg.

“princess!”

When Rudy said this in surprise, Princess Lilitha grabbed Buradov’s leg, jumped up, and stretched her hand upwards.

“······Ueeeng···Lu···Lu···.”

The nanny came running and tried to get the princess away, but it seemed that she was holding on to Buradov’s legs and wouldn’t let go.

“princess! You can’t do that!”

My ears went blank at the voice of the nanny and the crying princess.

“Buradov, please let me down.”

When Rudi said, Buradov sighed and bent at the waist, who was holding his body as if being torn apart by the young princess.

As soon as Rudy got down, the princess, unaware of anything, rushed at him.

I thought I managed to recognize him even though he was wrapped in bandages.

“Princess, it hurts.”

It really hurts. Blood oozes from the bandage, as if the flesh had re-opened.

However, Rudy didn’t remove the princess’ finger that was digging into the torn flesh and held it as it was.

“Ueee …”

Maybe I’ll cry like this too. She literally screams and cries with her whole body.

“Were you lonely, Princess?”

“Oueyen… Lu… Lu… ue…”

“are you okay. You came back like this. Whoa, look at this runny nose.”

When Rudy laughed, Princess Lilitha rubbed her face against Rudy’s body.

The runny nose got on the bandage and created a sticky thread between the princess and the princess.

“princess···.”

My nose got cold.

I don’t think I’ve ever cried today, but all of a sudden the tears are pouring down.

What I felt at the gladiatorial arena today was filth.

It’s not just this world that’s dirty.

Just as mud gets on your body when you touch it, Rudy knows that he has been contaminated by something.

In the frenzied gladiatorial arena, something about Rudy has changed today.

I don’t even know exactly what it is.

However, you can only know that something you have been holding has been broken.

The me of yesterday and the me of today are different.

And perhaps the future self will live forever in that changed form.

“…”

The dirt doesn’t go away.

Whether it’s to save one’s own life or just kill someone else as a joke, the fact that a person is dead doesn’t change, and the dirt once touched remains on the body forever. It never goes away.

It’s okay though, live.

I thought of that while watching the princess.

‘Without me, this child…’

In this world where there is no one else, there is only one person who needs and wants him.

It’s not like Mama Nadia projecting her son onto Rudy.

All Princess Rilisha sees is Rudy alone.

Whether it’s a murderer or a monster, it doesn’t matter to Princess Lilitha.

I just want it because Rudy is Rudy.

While the adults watched quietly, Rudy and Princess Lilitha hugged each other and cried for a long time.

< Dirty does not disappear > End

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