The Shaman Wants Transcendence

147 – I Will Stand Alone

The shrine where Ryosuke left was full of silence.

The whispering of the swaying leaves, the breathing of the swaying tree branches.

In the forest, where even the sounds of grass insects crying in between and the flapping wings of flying insects were completely gone, it was as if this world had suddenly turned into another world, and the darkness that disappeared and reappeared in the moonlight became even heavier. It subsided and created a gloomy atmosphere.

And as if to break the silence, a man’s voice came out of the smartphone along with static.

[Little. I gave him a chance, but it’s really pity that he kicked it out of nowhere and left behind. ]

Rise swallowed once at the words that flowed from the smartphone, then bit the strap attached to the smartphone into her mouth. With the smartphone in her mouth, Rise tidied up the collar of her thin yukata, then picked it up and pointed it at herself.

Rise made direct eye contact with Jin-seong, who was reflected on his smartphone, and asked.

“Shinju, I have a question.”

[ What? ]

“Why did you just send it?”

Rise’s face looked slightly angry.

“From my point of view, it seemed that the councilor had clearly betrayed Lord Shin. Besides, even though Shin Lord humbled himself and asked for a favor, he did not listen, and even made an excuse as if he were dealing with a troublesome person and left. I couldn’t believe it was an attitude, it was a shameless act.”

Risé paused his words as if trying to catch her breath, then asked.

“Is it clear that Senator Ryosuke has betrayed the Goddess?”

[So it is. ]

Jinseong coolly affirmed Rise’s words.

[It is as you said. There was fear, but no awe, full of remorse. I couldn’t find any trust, and I couldn’t feel the trust either. It is just like a person facing a beast trying to avoid it, and like a person facing adversity trying to run away with all their might rather than confront it. Just by looking at this, you can see that loyalty and trust are fragmented. ]

“Then why…”

RiSe tried to ask why he just sent it, but swallowed his words.

It was because she could see Jinseong trying to move her mouth.

[ Okay. You will be wondering I called it for the purpose of organizing castings, but the guy who called me didn’t think about entering in front of the torii gate, and he didn’t say anything about his relationship with Onmyoji or his betrayal, which he was supposed to be investigating, so it must be questionable. ]

Jinseong swipe the front of her smartphone with his hand.

Then, as if the blurry and dirty camera lens had been wiped, Jinseong’s appearance was clearly visible, and his dry face was revealed, as if he had just washed it.

[You should know what Tori means. It is the boundary and gateway that separates the land of gods and the land of humans. Crossing that means entrusting my body to God, and handing over the right to take over my life and death to someone other than myself. And, of course, an act like this requires a deep trust, a trust that I can entrust my own life to. ]

“Yes…”

[He who has no faith cannot see and cannot cross. If this is not an indicator of trust, what is it? In particular, the author Ryosuke didn’t acquire this fact through reason or knowledge, but was reluctant to do so through instinct. This is to say that his instincts have rejected us. ]

After Jinseong said that,Closed and opened

[ But… Okay. I didn’t think that I would have a hunch that wouldn’t pass by a torii, so it would be a miscalculation. However, even if it is a mistake, there is no loss, so it is not a bad thing. ]

RiSe nodded at Jinsung’s words.

[If it was a miscalculation not to enter the torii, then what was behind it was only a test. It is an invaluable opportunity to take the opportunity I gave you to save my life, and a precious test to pick up some of the water that is about to spill. ]

Jinsung laughed fiercely when he said that.

[It is infinitely strong against the weak and infinitely weak against the strong. However, if I proved my usefulness, I could have saved my life and maintained my wealth and power… Whoa, it’s really useless. It’s not useless, it’s not using it even though it’s useful. If you don’t say it’s like junk, what should I say! ]

He looked at Rise.

[Once upon a time, there was a person named Jiriso. He was so severely hunchbacked that his lower jaw was buried below the navel, his shoulders were higher than the crown of his head, his intestines were on top of his head, and his thighs were touching his sides. It was done ]

Jinsung started talking.

[But even useless things are useful. A tree that seems useless can grow with its life intact because of its uselessness, and a land that has nothing can keep its innocence without being dug up by its uselessness. This chirisso, unlike his appearance, had enough talent to make a living, and he had a talent for choosing rice, so he was able to feed a family of ten. In addition, he was freed from the target of conscription due to his ugly appearance, and he was freed from the target of labor because of a chronic disease. In addition, I have a knack for living, but I was able to buy food and firewood from the country because I was uncomfortable, so this is the usefulness of seemingly useless things! ]

Jinseong stopped talking nonstop and smiled.

A smile embracing death, unsuitable for a rabbit-like face.

[However, Ryosuke is an existence that deviated from the logic of this dance. He proved his usefulness by leading people into politics, showed a desire for improvement by holding on to the branches of a giant tree and tried to climb upward, and became a person who was far removed from dance by rejecting pleasure and gaining something special. It’s just that it’s a phase where you can surrender to the strong but hide your sword and change the master at any time, and there’s no faith in going together with affection, so that was the only useful thing to save your life…]

“…You haven’t proven your usefulness.”

[ It is true. If you don’t use your ability where you need to use it, how is that different from not having it? So, for that author, my fate is now decided here. But yes, since I said the lucky day and promised the future, that would be the end of my assigned lifespan, and the day I would die to embark on a journey to the underworld. ]

Risse raised his head slightly and looked up at the sky, thinking.

Ryosuke must die because he betrayed and could not prove his usefulness.

There are enough reasons to die.

I couldn’t even measure the size of the grace I had given and tried to stick a knife in my back.

Dying is right

But if it’s a condition that decides a person’s life.

If it was decided that Ryosuke’s life would be continued and ended under the condition of being ‘useless’.

Under what conditions is he really alive?

And if that condition disappears, will I be abandoned like this too? ＜Br＞

Rise erased the delusion that came to her mind for a moment.

‘I said it would make me happy…’

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Why did I suddenly have these negative thoughts?

Why did this absurd suspicion come to my mind?

Is it because he left Japan and has not been in touch?

Was it because his body was far away that he was delusional in his heart?

‘… I said I believe.’

RiSe desperately erased the slight, very slight doubt that had formed in her mind.

Then, he put it aside and lowered his head again, repeating the decision he had made in the past over and over again.

When she looked at her smartphone again, she could see Jinseong looking at Rise as before.

But in her true nature, her mouth was tightly shut, and her eyes were strained as if to look closely at her.

How long have you seen it?

[You’re being enticed by something strange. ]

“Yes yes?”

Rise was taken aback by the sudden, straight-forward words.

[Little. Yes, training is followed by suffering. Sharpening your body and mind and seeking the Way is like walking with your eyes closed in a dark place where there is no light. ]

Jinseong kindly gave lessons to RiSe, who was making her embarrassed face.

[Is the way I’m going right, is the direction I’m going right? These questions are natural, and I wonder if there is a precipice or poisonous snake in front of me, whether I will bump into a big tree while walking, whether there is a thief looking at me over there and thinking of stealing money, and whether the assailant will grab me and drag me away. . It is natural for such doubts and worries to strike like a mountain. This is natural, and it is a path that everyone must go through. Only true faith will become a compass and lead you to the right place. ]

Jinseong is strong.

And she said it clearly.

[ Trust me. ]

Jinsung’s face looked serious as he said that.

[Trust me when I said it would make you happy. So get out of the delusion and see the truth. ]

At that resoluteness, Rise put on a dazed expression for a moment.

[How can I get rid of someone who doesn’t even know the definition of happiness? It’s like releasing a baby animal into the wild that can’t even take care of itself, and it’s like dropping a bird that can’t even move its wings off a cliff. So, just forget your worries and follow me and trust me. Thus, you will have to find the path to happiness and strengthen your mind with a new God and new faith. ]

Rise’s expression changed.

Every time he hears Jin-sung saying that he will not abandon himself and that he will make him happy, his expression gradually loosens and the corners of his mouth go up. In time, the delusion in her eyes became faith, and the sweet words in her ears melted her face.

“Yes, I believe.”

Rise laughed bashfully.

The expression on her face seemed quite happy.