Rebirth Starts From Signing In

"The girl can't remember how long she cried that night. All she knows is that it was the saddest time she has cried since she was born.

"Probably I cried all the tears away. She hasn't shed tears for many years since then."

With a little teardrop on her eyelashes, Xia Mo looked at Li Hao tenderly, showing a sad smile:

"But now, she has cried her nose several times in front of someone."

Li Hao gently wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes and smiled:

"That person really deserves to be beaten fifty big ass, he actually made such a cute Mo'er cry."

Xia Mo clenched her small fist and hammered Li Hao's chest, muttering:

"Yeah, I should fight."

Li Hao felt pity in his heart, wrapped her small hand with his big hand, touching the skin, trying to pass the temperature of the palm of his hand to her.

It is often said that there are three sufferings in life: resentment and hatred, love parting, and cannot ask.

But to a certain extent, among the three sufferings, the most painful thing is to witness the dear ones leaving in front of him.

The painful feeling that I once had and lost is the most tormenting.

What is desperate is that it is so painful that everyone has to experience it more than once in a lifetime.

Xia Mo suffered the most pain in this world at such a young age, and the damage and blow to her young heart can be imagined.

This almost devastating pain caused an irreparable crack in her heart.

Then contact her family environment at the time.

When the father gave up, he only cared about self-improvement, and the mother remarried others to love her no longer.

For a little girl at an age in need of care and love from relatives, the departure of her grandma is tantamount to the collapse of the only pillar that has always supported her small world.

Although it will not be unaccompanied, but it is not far off.

Under multiple blows, if it is a child who is mentally sensitive and fragile, he may have taken an extreme path inadvertently.

Xiao Xia Mo should be very strong and did not go to extremes, but this incident also had an indelible impact and change on her character.

It made her from a lively and laughing little cutie to a cold and lonely girl.

This influence continues to this day.

If it weren't for tonight, she opened her heart to herself, revealing the other side she had hidden for many years.

Li Hao will still feel that her cold personality is innate.

The prejudice caused by this first impression is also a professional term in psychology called "anchor effect".

From a glimpse, we can understand the whole thing and expand the analysis. In reality, many people are also living with masks, and everyone is showing others what they want to show to others.

If you don't meet someone who can make heart-to-heart, some people may live with this disguise mask for a lifetime.

If you think about it, how can you really understand Lin Qingyao, Chen Xilu and others?

Li Hao couldn't help but fell into thinking.

It seems that I will not only have to attack them both physically and mentally in the future, but also need to add an extra step to relieve the mind.

Feeling the warmth from Li Hao's palm, Xia Mo's turbulent mood gradually calmed down, and he continued:

"The girl's mother and father took care of the grandma's funeral. After consultation, the two decided to let the girl live with her mother in the future, and her brother will follow her father. The two will never disturb each other and live on their own.

"So the girl followed her mother back to her long-lost home, and the strange new father greeted the girl enthusiastically and prepared a sumptuous dinner for her.

"But the girl keenly discovered that a stranger was added to the family at some point, and she had a strange brother.

"The girl was shocked and angry. For a while, she couldn't accept that her own home was occupied by others.

"She indifferently rejected the kindness passed by the new father, and shut herself in the room without eating or drinking for several days."

Li Hao stroked Xia Mo's soft hair with pity, and at the same time deeply sympathized with Xiao Xia Mo who existed in the distant time.

Change roles and think about where you are.

If I have just experienced the painful life of my grandmother, and then come home and find that the house is occupied by a magpie's nest, I am no longer a unique little princess, and I am afraid that my mentality will explode for a while.

With his own personality, most of them will run away from home.

Torturing herself behind closed doors like Xiao Xia Mo was already a very rational protest.

Of course, it could also be that Xiao Xia Mo was already disheartened at the time, and didn't even have the idea of ​​stepping out of the house.

"You are so thin now, maybe you were hungry at that time." Li Hao smiled.

Xia Mo tilted her head to look at him, clear eyes and cold eyes, and said lightly:

"After all, you still dislike me when I am young."

"Will not."

Li Hao shook his head firmly and said: "I like the little you. You can easily hug you and bully, warm, soft, and very comfortable."

Xia Mo squinted at him and ridiculed: "Are you a pedophile?"

Li Hao looked at Xia Mo with a smile, and asked, "Have you seen an 18-year-old child?"

"Huh~"

Xia Mo raised her knee dissatisfiedly and bumped Li Hao's calf.

Li Hao smiled, pulled Xia Mo's white and delicate hands, gently rubbed the back of her white hands like a treasure, and said softly:

"Xia Mo, do you know how attractive you are to me?

"In fact, I never cared about the size, fat or thinness, those are all hilarious, not counting.

"I only know that I like every part of your body so much. I can't wait to hold it in my hand to appreciate it inch by inch, kiss it inch by inch, and touch it inch by inch.

"I just want to keep playing like this, even if I play for a hundred years, I won't get bored.

Li Hao kissed the back of her hand and said affectionately:

"I really like you so much. For me, you are the best gift God has given me."

Being watched by Li Hao's fiery gaze, Xia Mo's delicate little face suddenly became red, and she gently withdrew her little hand, whispering disgust:

"Do you know you are so perverted."

"What's wrong with this?"

Li Hao lifted his chin and said of course:

"Like a person, of course, even with all of her and everything together, I admit it, I just greet your body, I'm mean."

Xia Mo remembered the scene where Li Hao secretly kissed her feet in the morning, and her face turned redder.

He raised his hands on Li Hao's chest and wanted to push him away, disgustingly said:

"You are a pervert, you are hopeless."

Li Hao pulled her over, hugged her tightly, and blew into her ear:

"Then the big pervert will come to eat you tonight, so you can't escape."

The sensitive ears were blown by Li Hao's nose, and Xia Mo's whole body suddenly softened, and he slumped motionless in Li Hao's arms.

Thinking of the "perverted torture" Li Hao might do to herself later, she began to regret why she would come out with him tonight.

"By the way, your story hasn't been finished yet, let's continue." Li Hao said impatiently.

Xia Mo gave Li Hao a white look.

This person's Sima Zhao's heart has been clearly written on his face one by one, like a monkey eager to pick the fruit.

I really shouldn't have come out with him.

Xia Mo sighed and continued:

"The girl who is locked in the room and self-enclosed in her heart also understands that her anger can't change the status quo. All she can do is accept the reality, unless she escapes from this home.

"But the outside world is so big, where is her shelter?

"She thought of the strangers she met when she ran away from home for the first time. The eyes of those strangers flashed with greedy eyes. If it weren't for her grandma to drive them away, she would probably be taken away by them.

"She remembered her grandma's advice to herself again. If her grandma is really paying attention to herself somewhere, she will definitely be disappointed by running away from home again.

"Because she didn't want to disappoint her grandma, the girl completely dispelled the idea of ​​running away from home.

"After a few days, she took the initiative to walk out of the room and try to live with her strange father and brother."

Xia Mo's tone became plain, as if telling a story that had nothing to do with him.

"She started going to school step by step, two o'clock and one line, monotonous and plain.

"My mother is very busy at work and has no time to accompany her. The new dad treats her very well, but he usually has to go to work. The two rarely meet.

"But there is still a young brother in the family who needs to take care of, so my mother hired a full-time nanny.

"Although the girl doesn't like this younger brother, she occasionally takes care of him while the babysitter is doing housework.

"But she has no experience in nursing and often makes this brother cry.

"Nanny is a person with traditional patriarchal thinking, and has never liked girls very much.

"After observing for a period of time, she has a general understanding of the situation in the family, and also knows that the girl is withdrawn, and basically does not take the initiative to communicate with her parents.

"Seeing the girl often crying her younger brother, the nanny didn't like it, so from time to time she secretly derogated the girl in front of the hostess and said something bad about the girl.

"My mother specifically called for a girl to talk to, but the girl felt that her mother did not trust her and had a big fight with her.

"Mom was very angry and couldn't help but beat the girl.

"This is the first time a girl has been beaten. Feeling aggrieved, she locked herself in the room again."

Hunger again?

Li Hao couldn't help but glanced at Xia Mo's small chest.

Such frequent hunger strikes, is this really hungry?

Xia Mo noticed Li Hao's gaze, gave him a glance, and continued:

"After this quarrel, the originally alienated relationship between the girl and her mother has become even more alienated.

"Although the new father is still friendly to her, the girl doesn't want to be close to him, and there is still a deep gap between the two.

"The girl originally had no expectations for this family that made her feel unfamiliar. She began to consciously avoid contact with her family.

"She perfectly staggered her work and rest with the rest of the family. She shut herself in the room after school and vacation, and stayed alone all day, and meals were delivered to the room by the nanny.

"Being alone for a long time, her character has become more withdrawn and difficult to deal with. The classmates in the school gradually alienated her, and she was also happy to be quiet and to be alone.

"Later, I didn't know who learned about the girl's family situation. Some girls began to gossip about the girl secretly.

"The girl didn't care much about this kind of chewing behind her back, but one day she overheard them talking about their grandmother.

"The girl who was offended by Nilin had a dispute with those girls. The two sides fought, and finally the teacher called the parents.

"I heard that the girl was fighting with her classmates at school. The mother who rushed to school beat her and scolded her in front of the teacher and classmates without saying a word.

"In the gloating eyes of the surrounding students, the girl lowered her head and said nothing.

"At that moment, she was truly discouraged, to this family, to this school, to this world."

"Since then, the girl has frozen herself up, and no longer cares about everything around her.

"She feels that the people around her are not worthy of her opening up, and she also doesn't expect that she can get the unreserved love of others.

"She began to wonder whether the embrace that grandma said that made her feel warm and at ease really existed?

"She has been so alone through junior high school, high school, and finally came to university.

"She originally thought that the same days would be repeated in college until one day..."

Xia Mo glanced at Li Hao, with a curved corner of her mouth, and said:

"A male classmate who knew he was malicious at first glance took the initiative to accost her, and added her WeChat account with a valid reason to fill out the questionnaire."

Li Hao also laughed when he heard the words, remembering the first encounter with Xia Mo in the cafeteria.

At that time, I was betting with Xie Jian and they found a reason to go to Xia Mo's WeChat, and finally pretended to force Xie Jian and the others.

At that time, where could you think that the two would hug each other like this and open their hearts to each other?

Xia Mo poked Li Hao in the face with her index finger and said:

"At that time, the girl didn't know that she was cheated on WeChat, thinking it was just an accidental communication, and she didn't take it seriously.

"But then she accidentally discovered that this boy was in a club with her. He was a freshman like her, not a junior.

"This made the girl a little angry. The initial impression of this liar boy was extremely bad. She didn't want to interact with this kind of person.

"But things backfired. Later, on campus, she could always meet this boy on various occasions, as if there was a faint thread connecting the two."

Li Hao recalled the past of the two, and felt that the many encounters were too coincidental.

It felt like Yue Lao was drunk, and he used a red thread to forcibly tie the two together in a daze, just to make a match.

But thanks to this unreliable Yuelaodian mandarin duck spectrum, he didn't let him miss Xia Mo.

"Later, she also discovered that this boy was an out-and-out scumbag."

Xia Mo looked at Li Hao with a faint smile, and said:

"At that time, in her heart, she felt disgusted and disgusted with this boy. She just wanted to avoid him and cut off all the intersections and connections with him, so as not to contaminate herself.

"But once again things went back to bed. The boy stuck to her like a piece of dogskin plaster, and he couldn't shake it off. I was so annoying."

"Then is she still annoying?" Li Hao asked.

"Annoying, so annoying, it's almost annoying her." Xia Mo chuckled lightly.

"So..."

Li Hao looked at Xia Mo with a smile, and said, "Then please tell the girl, that boy is going to trouble her for a lifetime."

"Well, please tell that guy too..."

Xia Mo blinked with clear and beautiful eyes, looked at Li Hao pitifully, like an innocent deer, and whispered:

"Tell him not to bully Mo'er, okay?"

"...!"

The corner of Li Hao's eyes jumped, and he felt a fierce beast in his heart banging against the cage, almost breaking out of the cage.

He lifted Xia Mo's delicate chin, looked straight into her eyes, and said:

"Please tell Mo'er that playing with fire is dangerous, don't play with fire at will."

Xia Mo seemed to be greatly frightened, with a flustered expression, and kept shaking his head:

"Don't eat Mo'er, Mo'er is afraid..."

Grass!

Raw can not be tolerated.

Li Hao sat up with a carp and started to observe the surroundings, planning to find a place that was hidden enough to eat.

Xia Mo turned over and threw Li Hao down on the grass, riding on him, bent her head and held his face, kissed and said:

"That annoying boy always arrogantly broke into the girl's life, shattering her peaceful life that had remained unchanged for many years, messing up, and being unable to fight it again.

"Not only did he always fight against girls everywhere, annoying and helpless girls, but he also confidently threatened to make girls like him, especially shameless.

"Simply a arrogant, arrogant and annoying man."

Xia Mo's kiss fell on Li Hao's forehead, eyebrows, nose, cheek, and finally fell on his lips.

The lips of the two touched gently.

Li Hao stared blankly at Xia Mo, who had a beautiful face and fluttering hair in the night.

Xia Mo gazed at him tenderly, her pink lips slightly opened, and she continued to tell:

"One day, in a sports competition, the girl accidentally injured her knee. The boy who was competing with her took the opportunity to hold the girl in his arms.

"The girl struggled desperately to break free from his embrace, but the boy's arm was so strong that she couldn't move.

"She wanted to resist verbally, but the boy unquestionably blocked her resistance.

"Trying for a while, and finally knowing that there is no hope of resisting, the girl had to forcibly endure the inner resentment and resistance, and let the boys hold her and send her to the hospital.

"On the way, the girl gradually realized that the boy's embrace was stable and comfortable, and he couldn't feel the slightest bump in his arms.

"It also made her feel the long-lost warmth and peace of mind. This is a feeling that only exists in memory.

"The girl remembered what grandma once said--

"If you can find a embrace that makes you feel warm and at ease in the future, then go forward bravely and don't leave any regrets."

"Is this what grandma said, don't miss the embrace of a lifetime?

"But, this boy is a scumbag.

"The girl is in a painful tangled heart."

Xia Mo said, glared at Li Hao, bit Li Hao's lips hard, and let Li Hao hiss in pain.

Xia Mo smiled with satisfaction and continued:

"The boys in the hospital cared for and took care of the girls in every possible way, which made the girls feel extremely tortured.

"On the one hand, the emotional thinking in her mind makes her greedy for the embrace that makes her feel warm and at ease.

"On the other hand, the rational thinking in her mind made her resist from the bottom of her heart and had a deep intersection with a scumbag.

"The two relative feelings are entangled in the girl's heart like twine. The tighter and tighter the entanglement, the tighter and tighter the entanglement. It makes her feel painful and don't know how to get along with boys.

"Then one night, the boy took the girl's first kiss strongly.

"At that moment, she felt both angry and relieved.

"Although the boy's behavior is shameless and despicable, she also realizes her true feelings by this.

"The entanglement that made her feel bewildered in her heart disappeared instantly, and she understood what she wanted."

Xia Mo gently stroked Li Hao's face, and said softly:

"After getting along with boys bit by bit, she became more convinced of her choice.

"She wants the embrace that makes her feel warm and at ease. She once possessed and lost, and originally thought she would never appear in her life again.

"But God made a joke for her and gave it to this nasty boy who was not right with her in a dramatic way. It seemed that she was letting her make a choice.

"And this time she doesn't want to lose it again."

Xia Mo kissed Li Hao's lips little by little, and whispered softly:

"The girl knows she can't get all the unreserved love of the boys, but she is too longing for the embrace that makes her nostalgic.

"She understood a truth very early, if you want to gain something, you must have the consciousness to lose something.

"The girl chooses to give her body to the boy in exchange for what she wants.

"In the beginning, she expected this to be a mere transaction, and didn't expect too many other things.

"But when something symbolizing purity was torn apart, the girl bit her lip in pain and felt aggrieved in her heart.

"She was suddenly greedy and wanted to have more, even a little bit."

Xia Mo kissed more and more ardently, and gasped as she kissed and said:

"Now, the girl's story continues.

"She doesn't know how the story will end, whether the current choice will be regretted in the future, or whether it was a wrong choice.

"But at least she knows that in the far future days, someone will accompany her and interpret her story together, and she will no longer be alone.

"For her, this is enough."

Xia Mo's nearly confession made Li Hao very emotional, and he hugged her tightly, his lips pressed against each other.

The two rolled on the grass.

Looking from a distance, in the darkness, the two figures seemed to merge together.

This kiss far surpassed the previous limit, and neither of the two was willing to let go of their hands, greedily asking for each other, even though they had been suffocated in confusion.

The trousers, clothes and hair of the two men were covered with grass roots and leaves. They looked like they had fought each other on the grass, embarrassed and funny.

And the battle continues.

In the end, it reached the limit, and if you kissed it, you would faint in shock, and the two reluctantly separated.

The two gasped hard, staring at each other.

Seeing grass scraps on each other's wet lips, the two of them looked at each other and laughed.

After laughing for a while, Li Hao stretched out his hand to wipe off the grass clippings on Xia Mo's face and hair, acting carefully and gently.

Xia Mo remained motionless, looking at Li Hao quietly.

After a while, she called out: "Li Hao."

"Well, I'm here." Li Hao responded softly.

Xia Mo showed a soft smile and said in a mischievous tone:

"Be good to Mo'er in the future..."

Li Hao looked at her clear eyes and smiled:

"That is absolute."

A gust of evening breeze blew, and flew to a far place with promise.

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